"I've recently discovered what the phrase, "I'm sick to my stomach" really means.

It means I can no longer wake up with a smile, knowing that she is no longer around. It's one of the most exasperating feelings for a human to endure. This feeling puts a frown on your face - you feel gloomy and harsh. If you are not careful, depression can strike you down. It got me pondering about the "if's" and "if only's"; "If I knew this was going to happen so soon, I would cherish her a little more. If only I was there.... If only she could stay."

Death can be so cruel when your loved one leaves you without any precaution warnings yet this is the reality of life. So this Thanksgiving, I'd like to thank God for had given me the most beautiful companion I could ask for, Diamond in the Ruff Hoffman."

Things I like about myself;

I'm kind to others. Always helpful. I'm curious and eager to learn. I have really slender hands, with pretty nails. My hair is dark with brown highlights, naturally. I always seems to make people laugh and stay happy. When I want to, my room is neat and clean. I'm always writing down my thoughts. I'm not judgmental, anymore. I'm into trying new things and going places. I have goals and dreams. I'm good at communication, when I want to be. I have nice legs. I'm double jointed therefore I am flexible. I can do a back flip. I'm modest and shy and bubbly at the same time. When I like or want something, I usually go for it. I'm not a bad driver, with my glasses on. I'm clever. I'm quick on my feet. When I'm out of money, I tend to get money really quick, from selling things online. My voice is soft and friendly. People says I have a nice laughter, smile. My mind is always alert and am able to learn things faster than the average person.



Things I hate about myself;

I'm always broke and jobless. I'm too obsessed and needy. I'm too curious and quick tempered. My nose is round and my chin is long. My no-longer-flat tummy is irritating me. I talk a lot, with little actions. My fear of the night and supernatural things drives me crazy and scares me. How I'm easily to feel moody and stressed out, really bug me out. I'm like bipolar or something, there are days I love myself and days I just feel like a failure. My eyesight sucks so I have to wear glasses. Sometime I'm a mean girl and I avenge others, secretly. I have a lot of mean, negative thoughts in the back of my mind. I have a bit of a jealousy problem. I  can't do in class presentation well. I'm horrible at talking when I'm put on the spot or during jobs interview. My fear of rejection holds me back from going forward. My nails and eyebrows grows way too much. Sometimes I am lazy and slack of. I procrastinates like it is the right thing to do. My complexion is not flawless and I'm not a C cups. I hate my bang.